Not much has changed... Still pushing play, still suck at blogging!!!

That pretty much sums it up!  I missed 2 workouts this weekend, so I am feeling bad about that, but I think I'm going to do phase 2 for an extra week to make up for my slackness.  Workouts in Phase 2 are kicking my ass for some reason.  I always feel sore and feel like I'm not getting as much from the workouts.  Plyo nearly killed me last night, but I finally got through Hot Foot.  It's baby steps in this program and a rollercoaster of emotions.  I can't say that at least once a day I don't think about just not continuing on, but that quickly fades and I know I MUST continue on.  This program has brought me so far in 37 short days... I am almost halfway there!  No turning back now... no matter how much it hurts, no matter how much I dread it sometimes... I will keep pushing play, and keep bringing it.  I will do my best and forget the rest.  And all of those quirky little things TonyHorton says!!!

A few of my 30 day pics...

First of all... my day 1 pictures are mortifying!!!  Even my 30 days make me wince, and I can't believe I'm posting them, but I'm staying accountable.  I'm looking forward to really pushing myself in this next phase and seeing even more dramatic results... Total results for the first 30 days.  13.75 inches and 6.5 pounds.  They SAY that women start seeing great results from 45-60 days, so I'm ready!!!

So... it turns out, I'm not a very good blogger.

A week since my last entry huh?  Okay, I suck at blogging!!!

Where to begin?  First, dad is doing better day by day, but I'm still in the office alone so it has been hectic and I've been finding creative ways to get my workouts in.  Today is day 30!!!  Sunday was the end of Phase 1, so I am 1/3 of the way there!  Last night was Chest/Shoulders/Triceps and it nearly killed me... seriously, I thought I would die.  WAY too many pushups for my bum wrist, but I pushed through it.  By far the toughest workout for me, and it doesn't help that it came on the heels of a recovery week.

Eating... well, that's not been so great, but I'm doing the best I can.  I have to get to the grocery store but finding the time hasn't been easy.

I'm taking day 30 pictures tomorrow morning... in preparation, I downloaded Day 1 pics.  My sister had them, I had not wanted to see them and OUCH... many, how did I get so out of shape?  It was mortifying to see them, so I'm hoping to see some changes in the day 30 pics... and really looking forward to kicking some ass over the next 30 days.  Talk about inspiration... gag.  Here is a pic I snapped the other night... starting to see a little muscle!!

I'm getting a lot of compliments these days, and I'm not so sure it's due to results.  My confidence level is higher... My posture is improving, I am feeling stronger... I think that shows more than anything.  Confidence is a funny thing.  My first 30 days was a test of my physical strength, emotional strength and willpower.  I think I get a 95 out of 100 for bringing it, considering everything that was thrown at me... I'm proud of what I accomplished, and I'm looking forward to the next 30 days.

Oh yeah... Recovery week sucks.  Not much recovering, but enough that by the time the following week starts, you feel like you are starting fresh.  I'm sure that is all part of the master plan, but the first day back on resistance exercises SUCKS!!!!!!!

Plyo tonight... can't believe I'm excited about Plyo.  THAT is how much I disliked last night's workout!!!!!  Last night's workout included "Plyo pushups"?  REALLY?  I'm just getting the hang of doing real pushups and you want me to go airborne and clap?  Not if I plan to still have a face...

The night I broke my ass...

Yesterday, I knew all day I had Core Synergistics waiting at home for me... and I was good with it.  I had a ton of energy and was really ready to push myself for a good workout.  Got home, pushed play and got going.  It doesn't get easier... if anything, sometimes it SEEMS harder, but I think that is because each time you can push yourself a little more.  There are still 3 exercises I don't even attempt... primarily because of my wrist, but also my upper body strength is still pretty weak right now.  During those exercises, I do push ups (which by the way, I can now bang out about 20 REAL pushups as opposed to the 6 or 7 I could do 3 weeks ago).  I try my best not to stop and just do something else challenging during those exercises, and I know someday soon I will be able to do them.  I get through the workout and I'm a sweaty mess, gasping to catch my breath and I'm ready for the cool down... at some point in the cool down I feel something in my ass pull and not a good pull... OH SHIT, I DONE BROKE MY ASS!!!!  I mean to tell you, it hurt SO bad last night.  I did some more stretching throughout the evening trying to work it out and this morning it seems to be fine... I guess I will see during Yoga.

Today is Day 23. Almost a third of the way there and while things have not been exactly easy, not for one second have I regretted starting P90X.  It has challenged me in every way and I am looking forward to Phase 2 when my body will be more adapted to the program and I can start seeing more results.  They say that women tend to start seeing results around day 45-60... we just don't develop as quickly as men.  However, I am already seeing some changes so it is exciting to think about what things might be like 30 days down the road.  For now, it's one day at a time... I just keep pushing play, and doing my best.  For the first time in a long time, I'm pretty darn proud of myself.  Of course, Yoga tends to dash that pride when I'm fumbling and stumbling all over the place... but at least I'm putting forth the effort right? Right...

If you want to do it, all you have to do is do it...

It really is just that simple.  I will have my regular update later, but a friend of mine posted a link to this and I wanted to put it here... if for nothing else, to inspire me on the days I don't feel like "pushing play" and doing my workout.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8SbXgQqbOoU

The week time stood still....

So I haven't written in a while... no, I haven't quit!!  Sunday, September 12th I had a football party.  We were all having a great time and drinking entirely too much when my mom called to inform me she was taking dad to the emergency room.  He had been having quite a bit of pain and stomach troubles, but it had turned pretty bad.  After a cat scan revealed that he had diverticuli pouches that had burst and perforated his bowels, he was being taken into emergency surgery.  Peritonitis had set in and this was serious... everything sort of stood still in my world at that moment.  I had never been faced with the possibility of losing my dad, and now I was faced with it, head on.  We spent the evening waiting with mom in the ICU waiting room... long story short, he is okay, and while he has a long road ahead of him to recovery, he is here to talk about it.  He is finally being released from the hospital today and we, as a family, are elated to get him home.

So, where did that leave me in terms of P90X?  Well, I skipped my Monday workout... I just didn't have the energy, nor did I even care.  I was coming down with a cold and wasn't allowed to see dad and I was just pissed at the world.  Tuesday, I started back with Core Syn... it was tough but I did it.  Wednesday I did Plyometrics, it kicked my butt.  Thursday I had shoulders/arms, and I rocked it... it's one of my favorites because I can do the entire workout and not feel like I'm dying.  Friday, things fell apart... was supposed to do Yoga but didn't really feel like it so I did legs/back, but ate and drank too much Friday night.  Saturday, I got about 40 minutes into Yoga and gave up... I was hungover, dizzy and just wanted to sleep.  Sunday, KenpoX, again, I got about 30 minutes in and stopped.  So while I wasn't a complete slacker, I really feel like the last 2 days were pretty useless.  I didn't care about what I was eating really... i didn't eat too much, I just ate all the wrong things.

Mentally I beat myself up a little bit this morning, but now, I'm okay with it.  I stuck with it the best I could considering everything I was dealing with... I'm back on track this morning and will make this week count, and then some.  I might be slightly behind in my progress, and that's okay... I've made it 3 weeks in, I'm 25% done... and that is an accomplishment I'm proud of.

Day 12... DONE!

Last night was Yoga-X, such a long workout... and for the extremely non-flexible, a very challenging, at times... depressing workout.  I made it all the way through, and set up mini goals throughout, it's a workout that challenges me to my very core... mentally and physically.  I sweat like a cow in that workout (do cows sweat?  Or is it pigs?).  There are times when my mind is telling me to quit, but that is when you have to dig deep and find the motivation to continue.

And 12 hours later I'm doing Legs and Back.  I decided to break up the legs/back routine from the ab ripper x so that I might get more out of ARX... my legs are SO spent after l/b that it makes ARX nearly impossible to finish.  So I will do ARX this evening and THEN day 12 will be officially in the books.  Tomorrow in KenpoX, then rest day on Sunday.  I'm thinking about adding Core Syn tomorrow as well because I REALLY miss that workout.  That is the workout I do miss from my brief experience with the LEAN program.  Plus, Sunday is football party day and I could probably use all the pre-calorie burning I can get!!  I'm going to enjoy my Sunday the best I can and not worry too much about what I'm eating or drinking... but it will be in the back of my head.  Monday will be the beginning of week 3, and the last week in phase 1 before recovery week, so I really need to be able to BRING IT on Monday, so I'm going to try not to overindulge.

Now it's time to munch on some string cheese and a double protein shake (chocolate cheesecake, yum :))